It's a season, not a day
The music starts in November. Her handwriting is on the ornament box. Her name is still on the card list. For many people, the hardest moments of the first Christmas come out of nowhere in December, not on the day itself. It helps to expect that, and to know it doesn't mean you're doing badly.
You don't have to do the whole season. Choose the two or three traditions that matter most this year and let the others rest.
Decorating, and her things
- Her ornaments. Hanging them can be lovely, or unbearable. Some families give each person one of her ornaments to hang on their own tree.
- Her stocking. Some people hang it and invite everyone to drop in a note to her, then read them on Christmas morning. Others put it away this year. Both are fine.
- Doing less. A smaller tree, or no tree, is a reasonable choice. You can bring it all back next year.
Gifts and cards
The gift you'd have bought her. Many people catch themselves picking something out for her. If that happens, you could buy it anyway and give it to someone who needs it, or donate to something she cared about in her name.
Christmas cards. You don't have to send them this year. If you do, a simple line is enough: "We're missing Mom this Christmas, and thinking of everyone who loved her." If the card list was hers, consider letting her friends know through one short note, rather than leaving them to find out from an unsigned card.
Ways to remember her on the day
- Make her Christmas breakfast, cookies or dinner dish, and let it be imperfect.
- Watch the movie she watched every year, or play her Christmas music.
- Light a candle at the table and say her name.
- Ask everyone to bring one memory of Christmas with her, and read them aloud.
- If she went to a Christmas Eve or Christmas morning service, go in her honor, or skip it if it's too much this year.
- Write her a letter, and read it on Christmas Eve.
A few words, if you need them
Before dinnerMom made Christmas happen in this family: [the thing she always did]. This year we're doing our best to keep it going. So let's eat, let's be a little too loud, and let's raise a glass to her. To [her name].
For the stocking notesMom, this year I [something you did, or wished she'd seen]. I still [something you do because of her]. Merry Christmas. I miss you.
If there are kids in the family
Children usually do better with honesty and a job to do. Tell them simply that the family is missing Grandma this Christmas and that it's okay to feel happy and sad on the same day. Let them make a card or an ornament for her. They'll take their cue from how you talk about her, so saying her name often helps.
And then New Year's
A lot of people are caught off guard by New Year's Eve: the first year she won't be part of. It's fine to go to bed early. It's also fine to mark it with a quiet toast to her and to the year ahead.
Questions people ask
Should we still put up the tree and decorations?
Only if it helps. Some families find decorating comforting; others do a smaller version or skip it the first year. You can bring it all back next Christmas.
What should we do with her stocking?
You could hang it and have everyone write her a note to put inside, put it away for this year, or give it to someone who'd treasure it. There's no wrong choice.
What do I write in a Christmas card to someone whose mom died this year?
Acknowledge her by name: "Thinking of you this Christmas and remembering your mom. I know this first one will be hard. Sending love." Our free sympathy message writer can help with more.
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